To much at once.

This morning was a little stressful. JJ's first day of school and me moving into the office was today. I battled the noisy kids and annoying parents this weekend getting all the school supplies and dealing with the school that he is going with.

His orientation was on Friday and I met his new teacher at his new school. It was chaos. I was doing fine until I asked the teacher to see what they are going to be learning, only to find out that if I hadn't asked, he would have been re learning everything he learned last year for an entire semester. I was so mad at the level of education or lack of at this new school that I went and talked to the school principal and he just said, "Why don't we put him into the 3rd grade?". Um, let me see....no. He's already a year younger than the kids in his class. He's suppose to be in first grade. He would be a social outcast who already has a hard time associating with other children b/c he likes to play alone alot. After talking to the principal, I told him that we needed to figure it out or I would work a second job to put him back into private school. I talked with him and the 3rd grade teacher and they are going to work with his 2nd grade teacher to work with him somewhere in the middle so that he is not just sitting on his ass and disrupting the class.

This morning was hard. I had to wake up extra early to get all of his school supplies, lunches made and the kids dressed so that we could get everything done. When we got him to his new school it was chaos. There were all of these parents trying to carry bags and bags of school supplies with their kids to one room from Elementary school kids to High school kids and alot of kids crying and parents acting like blithering idiots. They wanted him to carry all of his belongings all by himself in all of the chaos. We told them that he couldn't do it alone b/c he as too small to carry such a load. What did we get in response? "Oh, he doesn't need to bring it all at once. He can bring it throughout the week". I'm fuming mad. I wouldn't have gone over the weekend if I would have known that. JJ looked so nervous and lost in all of it. I felt bad for leaving him. I'm wondering how he is doing right now.

Jocelyne is doing great where she is. I love the school she is in. It's JJ's old school, but she is in the preschool. They are so awsome. I wish that we could have kept JJ where he was. But then again, if it doesn't work out, he's going back b/c I'm not going to let him suffer if it doesn't work for him.

As for me, I don't know what do with myself. I'm on week 2 of Chanitx and it's working quite well. I'm trying to get used to not having a cigarette in my hand. I never noticed how much I relied on it. It's my first day in the office and I'm here all alone. I haven't been without my kids in almost 7 years and I don't know how to react to it. I know it's going to take some time to get used to but, as of right now, I have now clue how to act. I'm used to a kid around me 24/7 and now both of them are gone off to school with other people teaching them and not me. I can do this. Deep breaths.

Anyway, I'm suppose to be working so I guess I should get back to it. I just need to relax and try to get through the day.